Of FB, fries and coke floats among other things

FB has made reuniting possible, like most of us, I will always be thankful that a Mark Zuckerberg came up with this brilliant idea! I was a friendster fan before anything else but it was not good enough for me. And I guess during that time Friendster, seemed to be.... well, more friendly? For awhile my FB profile picture was that of Angel Locsin's and I gained FB friends because of her sexy picture. :)  

That is FB's bright side, the other side of the coin is that if someone wants to block you then whatever you do, you won't be able to get into the nitty gritty detail of the person you'd like to connect with. But am fine with that. Because there are people you don't really feel comf'table with to be part of your fb friends.  But this article is not about FB ~ it's about friends...friends I've lost and friends I've found. Six years ago (same age as my youngest son), I lost a very special friend. Hard to forget that, since my son is a reminder of that particular friendship-gone-awry. It was a misunderstanding that no one really understands (sounds redundant right?).  I guess she feels that I've betrayed her. Two sides of the coin, I feel she blamed me for her loss.

How does one feel when a friend is lost? It feels as if a limb has been cut off from your body... Feels like that last piece of Fries you were just about to dunk into your large Coke float. Honestly, losing a friend sucks! But it's not the fact of losing one that does, what sucks more is the reason why you've lost that friend. I've never really lost a friend before and if I had, it was not because of anything else except probably distance, transferring to another place or what have you (until about 6 years ago). I felt terrible. Terrible for her and terrible for me and my friends. Again 2 sides of the coin. Like "friends fries" and "coke bloats". I'm not going into any of the sordid details though. The fact of the matter is that, it is done and over with. My 3 other friends and I who used to complete our circle are no longer welcome. We've been deleted. Everything else has gone kaput! Finito! But as I've told her she may have closed her doors on us, but we've left our windows wide open. She's said her "Adieu" to which my reply was "Au Revoir." And as I keep saying distance should never matter, time spent should never matter. Reuniting after such a long time, your tune should remain the same, true friendship should endure. One cannot put a price tag on friendship, we cannot blame them for not being there for us. We cannot count the times we have been put down by our friends. Whatever we do in life is our choice. Near or far, our friends are only there to support or contradict us. But at the end of the day, we make our own choices. If you have not been honest to your friends, how in hell can you expect your friends to understand what you are going through, what you've been through, and what you continue to go through?  "Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding" ~ Sri Chinmoy ~  I still believe that God would not have wanted friendships to end this way. Which is why, my understanding of friendship is something that I have never enclosed in a box chock-full of expectations.

"We all lose friends...we lose them in death, to distance, and over time. But even though they may be lost, hope is not. The key is to keep them in your heart, and when the time is right, you can pick up the friendship right where you left off. Even the lost find their way home when you leave the light on."        ~ Amy Marie Walz ~ 

In the meantime, this year amidst some personal setbacks, have turned out well for people like me who have been meaning to reunite. Ten years ago was the last time I saw one of my dearest male friends. I've spent years searching for him online, which has proven futile since he's not a fan of the computer age. The time we spent together during my vacation was short but sweet. Again, knowing that a long lost friend is fine is the best news always. The ten year gap in between was not a deterrent to our friendship. Life must go on. The years in between each absence should not count. What should always matter is we've remained the best of friends all through our life's ups and downs. I've reunited with more friends since...  this time through FB. Indeed, technology has brought more meaning to friendships ~ long lost, now found.

Electric (oven) dreams

Lately, I've been pushing myself to learn more than just baking cookies and pastry bars. Back in the Philippines, I was seriously into all-gourmet ~ pasta, sandwiches, salads, and other dishes. Most of the recipes I know are the ones that I learned from my mom and a few experiments I've done in the past, or those which I've learned from watching my favorite culinary experts like Chefs Gaita Fores (I used to watch her on TV when I was still in my teens), Nancy Reyes-Lumen, Rosebud Benitez, The Dazas, Paula Deen, Rachel Ray, Nigella Lawson, David Rocco, Guy Fieri, Ina of the Brefoot Contessa and Bobby Ching. I'm a wannabe Chef!  It's just too bad that I didn't even think about getting a Culinary degree rather than staking it through College with a course in Business Management. But all that's water under the bridge and there is no other way but to move forward. Right?... Right!  :)

Perhaps having more time and a good reliable oven sparked much inspiration to further my craft :)  Sorry folks if I seem to blabber a lot about my love for the culinary and lose myself in the process. Back in college I remember telling everyone how I'd love to put up my own restaurant someday. Well, that someday hasn't come knocking on my door yet. But am happy to know that selling food in my previous work, and a small catering service on the side, has earned me quite a number of regular customers. I 've never felt this elated in my previous jobs! This is my calling, and every time I get good reviews from my clients, such encourages me to do better. 

Last year I've been requested to make Sans Rival (this is a 4-layer cashew meringue with french butter cream in between layers), I know how tedious baking this recipe can be. Baking meringue is something I haven't tried doing yet. But am prolonging such agony. It's this pain of wanting to try doing it already but it feels a bit daunting for me yet. So I digress.  :) I want to be able to do something I also have not tried yet but this recipe has got to be such that would make me closer to my goal of baking Sans Rival and facing it head on. Oh! I'm probably just making a big fuss about it but I keep telling myself that I have to deal with it this way. Inch by inch. Taking one baby step at a time. This week, has sent me baking different goodies. I'd like to think that my husband and children's "Wow!" at the pastries I make, is getting me closer to my Meringue. :)

From last week I've been coming up with crazy cookie and caramel bar ideas like the Mid-Eastern inspired cookies which I aptly coined as Jazzminced (aka Princess Jasmine), caramel cookies with minced dates and nuts, Alad-dark (aka Aladdin), dark chocolate cookies with chocolate chips, ground nuts and dates, and my personal favorie Jafire (aka Jaffar), butterscotch cookies with dates, mixed ground nuts and chili flakes. Yep! you read that right! Chili flakes gives it a bit of kick that worked well with the nuts!

I also came up with a Tropical-inspired butterscotch bar that I call Copacobanas, a fusion of coconut and bananas and then some of my secret ingredients. 

I also surprised my family with Red Velvets this week. :)

And today I finally made my husband's favorite Brazo de Mercedez! This really made my husband say "WOW!" ~ I might have seen his eyes sparkle a bit but the best part is, when he commended me with a "ang galing mo naman Mom! Magbenta ka rin ng ganito (a sentence akin to "you've outdone yourself! Include this on your online store") Being able to make my husband's favorite Brazo de Mercedez is such a feat for me. I was not sure how it would look and taste like. But I've surprised myself as well! And happily so! I was supposed to use condensed milk for the filling but I did not want to go to the Baqala just to buy a can of condensed milk, when I can do something in its stead. So, I followed my instinct and thankfully so because my husband (a forever critic of mine) said that it had the right sweetness to it. And it tasted so good! It felt wonderful to have accomplished something that I only imagined doing in the past.  You can visit my FB page https://www.facebook.com/vianaskitchen to view the other pastries and dishes that has kept me busy in my kitchen.

I can hear my kitchen calling me again...I'll have to sleep on this one. My oven's been in a spin for two weeks now :)

My ray of sunshine on Graduation day

We spent March 22nd  at the school of our children. It was our youngest son's graduation day and  a happy albeit a tearful one for me! Having attended two graduations in the past, I would have thought that this will be no different. I did not even cry when my son Alloy graduated as 2nd honors and at the same time bagged three more Academic excellence achievement awards back in the Philippines.

This time it was different, not only because he was our youngest;  but amongst our children, we let 2 years passed before we were able to enroll him in school. Why? We had to give priority to our older children. He was supposed to attend regular school back in 2010; but since we were in the process of joining my husband abroad, we thought it better for him to take his primary schooling in Saudi Arabia. Unlike his two siblings, we enrolled him in a public school near our home while waiting for our visas. It's a good thing that our youngest son has a sunny disposition. He didn't mind going to a different school. Little things made him happy in a big way! I guess I could say that he is able to cope better than I do. I have no qualms about sending him to a public school as I remember attending one myself before my parents enrolled me in kindergarten at a private school somewhere in Quezon City.  Everyday he walks to school with his nanny, I felt this big lump in my throat. It didn't feel right that while his siblings were fetched by the school service, he had to walk to school. After all, he was my "bunsoy", my youngest child. Hence, during the few times he'd request to ride the jeepney even if the school is just a stone's throw away, I'd give in. 

When we arrived in this country I was hoping we could enroll him at the same time with his ate and kuya. To my dismay, my bunso's chance of going to school had to be sacrificed again. My heart felt like being torn to pieces. But  he never complained. While my husband and I were at work and my two kids were in school, he spent 11 hours at the daycare. He was often sick, which made me feel more terrible! My thought bubbles filled with visions of his nanny shaking her head and wagging her fingers at me  in discord. Hence, I made a decision, it was time for me to make a couple more sacrifices. I gave up my job. I gave up our family's additional source of income which translated to giving up sending money to my parents; or being able to save up for a trip I'd love them to have.... or that Gucci bag I would love to own.... or a pair of Michael Kors I'd love for my feet to slip into. But I was fine with that. I'd rather be with my children and make sure they get the best of me anytime and always. :)

I told my husband about my decision which he supported 100%. From that time on, I was homebound and wonderfully so! I was finally a hands-on mom. My early mornings were spent preparing breakfast for the family. The laundry never piled up as it used to. A hot meal was always ready by the time they come home. Best of all, I was with my son when he underwent adenotonsillectomy. And even better is the fact that we enjoyed each others' company while his Ate and Kuya were in school. 

Moving forward...I could hear their little voices fill the school gymnasium. They were singing their graduation song. From where I was standing, I could see my son crooning with gusto with hands mimicking the words of the song. He was in such high spirits and I couldn't be any happier for him. Warm tears found their way down my cheeks; both our sacrifices seemed to have paid off! My son performed well in school, and I was told time and again by his teachers that he is such a well-behaved child. Although without honors, he's always included in the list of Class Achievers. My youngest son, my source of joy has now graduated from Prep and it's his time to shine!

Bunso, I've seen how much you valued your academic responsibility. Everytime you arrived home from school, the first thing you always do is to finish your homework (even without my prodding). The results of your exams shows how much effort you've put on your studies. Continue being a helpful, kind and loving son! Congratulations to my wonderful bunso! You know how much Mommy and Daddy loves you! 

To My Son

© Amy R. Campbell

Oh how the years go by,
Oh how time can certainly fly.
From once just a thought in far away dreams,
now into my arms and in my eyes gleam
the presence of you.
Your laughter and smiles
which go on for miles,
warms my heart and soul.
You're growing up so fast,
as I wish each moment with you to last forever.
My little boy will someday be a man
and right by your side I will forever stand.
I will pick up the pieces when you fall,
I will hold your hand and help you stand tall.
And when the day comes when you are on your own,
never feel that you are alone.
No matter how near or far apart
I am always right there in your heart.
Always remember whatever you go through
that no matter what, I will always love you.

A rose from my Papa

Last Thursday, at the height of my fever, a poem my Papa composed for me when I was in highschool, (or rather for my school project ;P) kept circling my mind. It was a short poem which I tried to recall. I think it was an assignment that I'm supposed to submit after that particular weekend but I was stucked. I found myself unable to compose anything. My father was reading the newspaper in our living room when I asked for his help.  He was silent for a bit and was able to come up with this ~

The Rose

Early morning as I arose,

I thought I saw a lovely rose.

I tried to hold and kiss it most,

but found it none when I awoke.

When I became a bit conscious,

 only a dream and a lovely thought...

My father, an Engineer by profession, is surprisingly very eloquent and proficient in writing. I think it is one of his God-given talents. He's also excellent in Math (a trait, which unfortunately, I wasn't able to acquire hahaha).  In fact, I've read a couple of love letters he wrote to my mom. And I could just imagine how this has become so effective in capturing my mother's heart Yiheee!!!!  

It's a good thing I was able to remember. I know... I know....!!! It's such a short literary piece for me to forget, but it's been years since I've thought about this poem. I had to search from my "left temporal lobe" (to be more specific) long and hard to get it right. It sounds right though. It's a shame that I was not able to keep a hard copy. This is how I think of my dad. I don't have too much memory of us having a father-daughter "colloquy", except when he was angry at me for something or when he wanted me to hand him a tool he needs. "Paabot ng martilyo (hand me the hammer)", "hawakan mo ang antenna at bababa lang ako (hold the antenna, I've to go down and get something" (we were both on the roof), and "Magpaalam ka sa mama mo (ask permission from your mama)" are a few of our regular one on one conversations. Pathetic? Nope. I don't think so. I guess I understand why my father chooses to reserve his thoughts. And anyway, just to be optimistic ~ I can always claim my badge of honor as being the daughter who was there for him as his assistant for home repairs. I am the daughter, who can climb up the roof to help with the antenna among other things. There was one time when he put his thoughts about "falling in love" into writing but I will share that bit with you on another day. :)

So, you see how important it is for me to remember this poem that my Papa taught me?  While learning to ride the bicycle and driving a car are equally important lessons I learned from my father. This poem, defines his love for me. Why? He could have shooed me away and tell me to ask my mom but instead he took  time to think of a poem. Precious little time matters for a daughter who will always crave for her father's love and attention. And he gave that to me on that particular moment. Thank you Papa! I may not be your perfect daughter but hey we shared your hammer, I mean that's a good thing right? We climbed the roof together for heaven's sake! And best of all we share the same legs!  I love you, Papa!

Men to boys

The male gender has been a perennial problem for most of the female populace (Am sure they'd claim that they have had their share of problems with the female counterpart hahaha). I think this is what makes life very interesting, don't you think? :)  Well, happily married people are not excused from such fate. In the first place, before getting married, couples have had their own fair share of heartbreak and "dramatic" episodes in the past.

Am sure the male population would not agree, but it has been proven scientifically that most women, mature earlier (reasoning wise) as compared to their male counterpart. Why am I suddenly talking about this timeless struggle between the sexes? I am reminded of such because of friends who are going through their own real-life "teleserye". Am not an expert on this field, but one does not have to be an expert on such. I can only share my thoughts, my own opinion. I may be wrong, But let me clarify that this is my own opinion, the result of my "thought bubbles". Please don't persecute me ;P

Men who refuse to stay in a monogamous relationship probably grew up lacking in the right amount of love. These are boys who probably grew up in an environment where love was not constant, where love was held back. Hence, they grow up from boys to men to boys again. By going from one relationship to another, they are assured of constant love. The kind of feeling that these men feel they'd achieve if they go philandering in the hope that this time, such love would patch their gaping childhood wounds.Such men are immature and will probably remain that way until they are old and wrinkled. And women who stay in such a relationship will never be happy unless she shuts her eyes and love her man despite of this frailty.

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professionallifecoach.org 

Men who uses emotional blackmail, perhaps grew up in an environment where, as boys, have been subjected to the same kind of treatment. They begin using such method to get what they want, subdue their partners, or feel on top of a particular situation. Emotional blackmail can be in the form of grave threats (if you leave, I will kill myself; you will never see me again, you will never see me or your children again, or I will tell my mom... hehehe). Or it can also be in the form of expensive gifts (that is if you are in a relationship with a rich guy).

Men who reckon their women as punching bags (both emotional and physical), are one of the worst kind. They have no concern at all for their partners! Seeing them bloodied up probably excites them even more. It makes them feel more "macho" ... on top of the world (imagine my eyes rolling in disbelief).They have the least respect for women and yet they are master manipulators, with their sweet tongue-in-cheek and sugar-coated promises not to do it again. I know a couple of men who fits the description rather perfectly well!. Let me direct you to their  FB page....hahaha  That got your attention yeah?!  Well, men like these are not men at all but little boys who are really scared. And since they probably grew up in an environment where verbal and physical abuse was served daily, then expect them to match up to their parent's expectation or even go beyond. Otherwise, they are probably heavy drug users!

This is just a few and yet there are many type of prowlers out there ready to pounce on an unsuspecting victim. So always be on guard. But since Love is so blind most times, some women fall prey to these kinds of men! We can't really blame love nor the women who fall in love with men who belong to such category! But hey, we have a choice right? And like many decisions that we often have to make, we must be armed to make  healthy choices. Think self-respect! Some may have grown up in a house where self-respect is scarce, but at the end of the day, it's your body, your future, everything about you that matters. Making the right decision matters! If you feel that a current relationship is always on edge...walk away! You're better off without a man who makes you feel less than you probably think you are. Don't let that kind of man dictate who you are nor the kind of person that you can still be! Quoting my sister again, "NO ONE can put a price tag on you, only You can!" And to add, that you have such sovereign power to tag yourself expensively! You deserve someone so much better!

If your parents are forcing you to marry despite the fact that you are in an unhappy relationship; think twice! Or don't think at all. Just walk away rather than waste your life on someone who will only keep on abusing you. Your parents will not be the ones who will live with this man for the rest of their lives. It is you who will do so. And when they are long gone, what can they do to help you get out of it? If you're gonna live, live it right. Live life with the kind of privileged freedom that every one of us deserves. Jesus did not give up His life, for us to give up on ourselves! Give justice to His ultimate sacrifice! Don't enter into a relationship just because you're lonely, or pressured to be on one. Let fate lead you to each other! And constantly pray for the right partner. Have a hefty serving of self-respect  because we all deserve nothing less!

I saw this power control wheel which I think is quite helpful in finding out if you are in an abusive relationship yourself. But it's best if you visit their website ~ Lindsey Anne Burke.

"There are many signs of an abusive relationship. The most telling sign is fear of your partner. If you feel like you have to constantly walk on eggshells around your partner, constantly watching what you say and do in order to avoid a blow-up, chances are your relationship is unhealthy and abusive." ~ Anonymous ~

Zest it up!

David Rocco's Dolce Vita is one of the most interesting tv food shows I used to watch. It is from him that I learned this very simple, refreshing and healthy pasta dish. So let me share it with you. This is my version of his dish.

For this pasta dish you'll need the following:

Linguine al limone

(good for 2-3 servings)

250g Pasta 

***You can use either Fetuccine, Spaghetti, Spaghettini or Linguine noodles. I prefer Linguine though, for this particular recipe, as it is just the right size for this tangy pasta dish.

1/2 a lemon for every 250g of pasta

salt and pepper for seasoning

add a bit of rosemary and cilantro, chopped

Olive oil

2 pcs garlic minced well.

Parmesan or Cottage cheese

1/4 cup chopped walnuts

1. Boil the noodles al dente. Saute the minced garlic in 1/4 cup of olive oil. Set aside.

2. When noodles are done, pour the olive oil mixture and toss the rosemary, cilantro and chopped walnuts. Squeeze the lemon onto the pasta noodles and just mix everything together. Add more olive oil.

3. Sprinkle generously with parmesan cheese. Season with salt and pepper. Serve hot.

Note: I use cottage cheese for this recipe, but what I do is use it as toppings on the pasta. Garnish with cilantro and a bit more of the chopped walnuts. This is sooo good and healthy too!

I hope you enjoy this delightful dish! Bon Apetit!

P.S.

Mama you can use this recipe this is safe for your heart. :)

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