Crossroads

My son has been sick on and off for the past 3 weeks, we've brought him to the doctor every time and  been told that his fever is due to his perennial cough and colds. I don't know if it is related, but last week we rushed him to the doctor due to an infection called balanitis. This kind of infection is common to the male gender and can happen at any age according to the Pedia who saw him. Plus the fact that he has colds and a bit of cough again. But wait...there's more... Now exactly a week from the time that we rushed him to the hospital, he has high grade fever and I don't have the heart to leave him with people I don't really know well enough while I go to work. Besides even if I reported for work, I know my mind will always be with my baby boy.

This brings me to a couple of decisions which literally tears me apart...first, should i leave my current job and find  work that does not require me to be physically present in the office? second, should we continue with the suspended procedure that my son needs? (under http://ofwifediary.blogspot.com/2010/11/to-remove-or-not-remove.html) we've parked that temporarily for some odd reason or another. 

The latter is something that needs to be done A.S.A.P. but leaving my job will be such a hard decision. Why? I don't want my company to think that Filipino women are that way and at the same time I would not want my children to feel that their mom is always at work at a time they need me most. Hence, I face this dilemma every single day...for the past 3 weeks. Back in the Philippines it was easier for me to leave my kids home even if they're sick as my kids have a nanny to take care of them in my absence. A nanny who takes care of them the way I do. I noticed that my son has always been sick since I started working and since I started leaving him at the day care. 

Aaaargh! Now I face my crossroads...should I or should I not?....with the Lord's help and the guidance of the Holy Spirit I pray for an answer...